The love of my life is 61 years young, I am 29 years young. Why am I in love with a man beyond my years? He loves me more than any man I've ever met. He pushes me to improve myself daily. He accepts no excuses from me for reasons why I think I might not be able to better myself. He shows me how much he cares on a daily basis. He has never raised his voice or put his hands up towards me in a striking manner. He has shown me the true definition of love, something I struggled with for many years. He has shown me that love is more than just a word and so is the true definition of family. He has shown me a constant unconditional love that I never knew existed. He has given me confidence to talk to him about any and everything, especially things that bother me. He is the listening and comforting ear I've longed for. He treats me like the Queen that I am and he is my King. He has stuck with me when I was at my worst, therefore he receives only the best of me. He is the most courageous, logical, loving, and kind gentleman I have ever known. He is in far better shape than most men in their 60s, 50s, 40s, 30s, and even 20s. He has pushed me to take care of my health, something I neglected for years which far too many people are conditioned to do. He leads by example instead of words alone. He is truly a loving son of God. I know in my heart that he is sent from heaven as Keisha Cole's song says. I believe he was put in my path to help me rise above, improve myself, and truly embody the persona of the loving daughter of God he deserves. He completes me.
I was trying to figure out what was missing in video 1 (the unmastered audio version) so I learned to master it quickly. At first I was going to outsource it but did it myself. I played around and also added a second voice track going at normal pace then a faster pace. Check this out!
Don't ever tell yourself there's something you can't do.... -Shenteria Marie
On my YouTube channel I have now added a new title: social justice warrior for younger generations. I am now an author, voice over actress, a health coach, natural hair enthusiast, and of course my new title which speaks volumes. In a blog I posted a couple months ago, I mentioned about limiting myself to the success or misses of those around me. Based on my own personal experience and the lives of others I know, far too many people are doing the same. I wonder: Who is going to stand up for those young lost people wanting to reach for something better? Who will show them what success truly feels like? Are they destined to give excuses to a faceless thing that holds them back or are they destined to excel as they should?
I do feel more older people must recognize how they are influencing the younger generations, so they can grow and become better more positive examples and role models. I feel it is unfair for anyone to stop trying and growing, even more so when they give up on themselves. As the saying goes "Lessen your disappointments by lowering your expectations of people", fine do that but never give up on yourself. Older generations need to understand that they are the reason younger people are growing up in this world with no hope.
The reason for the many problems within our own community has nothing to do with the fact that Donald Trump is our new president. Even when Barack Obama was president and seeing the first black family in the white house; that still wasn't enough to create a conscious effort to change the black community. Why? Because everyone has to be open to change, young and old. It starts in the family and grows all throughout every day life, into society, and worldwide. Majority of us are not achieving our goals and dreams because we believe that we cannot. The most secure foundation is the home, the family. Parents must do better for their children. People may say the child must do right by the parent, but the same should be a courtesy in return.
I speak as an African American woman who grew up without a "dad" myself. I speak as someone who notices those disappointments and failures based on many people not trying. I consider myself a social justice warrior because I wish someone stood up for me and paid attention to or brought attention to the things I mention now. The stagnation, the laziness, the overindulgence, the lack of emotional control, the fear, the shame, the hate, the broken pride and so much more. Unfortunately, even now for some reason people continue to make excuses and ignore the truth that is right before their eyes. When will we stop living selfishly? When will the future of tomorrow matter to us? When will black lives truly begin to matter to us? If they did we would change our behaviors, we would work together instead of against each other, we would recognize our own truth then improve ourselves for younger generations. When will we become better together so the world can become better!
In this episode, I read a few paragraphs from my book. When writing my book, this part was hard for me to get through because of the bad thoughts in my head at the time of the incident. I specifically chose this part of the book to talk about because one of my younger cousins is going through the same thing I went through. She is much younger than I was at the time this happened to me, so I truly feel for her. I want to find ways to stop this negative behavior. I also speak about the black community making real changes, especially with Tupac's movie coming out 'All Eyez On Me'. I wonder how many people will make those changes he speaks about in comparison to how many people will just pack the movie theater then go home and do nothing. When will we learn? Listen as I speak some real truth...